Hi, can anyone tell me what happened to August and most of September?
It’s been a wacky wacky few weeks here in mama-papa-finn world, lots of late nights and new growth. It’s past midnight and I really should be in bed, but I desperately wanted to share a little window of life with those who might read this blog… I promise to write more soon, and fill you all in on the magical things that comes with being almost 11months old- including! (but not limited to) signing a few words; grunting a few ‘words’; crawling, climbing, almost walking, clapping and dancing; instigating silliness and play; sometimes sleeping through the night but generally not; patiently watching mama make a poor choice and then patiently watching as she works her way back out of that decision (yuk yuk); wondering where daddy might be (oh long nights of work); pushing mama to her absolute physical limits at the end of the night (see previous note); and a little charm to woo the ladies (for good measure). We had another photo shoot with our dear friend Wendy D last week- a little sample of the hundred+ pics she took of this handsome dude. (friggin adorable, right?)
We’re taking an infant sign language class right now, and it totally rocks my world when he now asks for the kinds of things he wants in his day (grapes or peach?)… like, really cool. Yo. Getting out of the tub at night-Finn: I’m all done, now I want a book to read. Me: whaaaa? You are too awesome for words! Seriously, I will sign “AWESOME!”.
Here’s a little bit of the ‘nearly walking’ in action. I would really like to know where he figured out how to do this. Freaks me out!
Briefly- About me? I’m really tired, and with D-man working really long days (no doubt he’d mention tired at the top of his list too), this nearly single parenting gig is really an eye opening experience. I had a couple weeks of taking on way more than I was capable of, but have now gotten a small grip on that, and I’m hoping to keep the clear head for a little longer. Long enough to gather a bit more energy and resources so that I might go spend a couple hours a week in the place that I haven’t been in months… let’s see, what was it called? Oh yeah- MY STUDIO!
Reminds me of a Kasey Chamber’s lyric: “I asked the rain to hold off, and so far it looks just fine.”
Yeah, the past few weeks have felt like…well, let me draw a visual. It’s like flying in an airplane, rise up and up, and the clouds come in, I can’t make out the terrain below- mountains? rivers? roads? farms? city?… where are the clues I need to place myself in this world? Slowly, unexpectedly, the clouds part- just enough!- to see where things lie. My map has been obscured by clouds, and I’ve been just wandering along, operating on auto-pilot without asking “where am I, and HOW did I get here?” But that said, it feels like I’ve had a few glimpses this week, and I’m gathering the strength to start to ask those questions, hopefully with the grace and compassion that they deserve.
30 second check in- what do I need in this very moment? Sleep (and that only took 4 seconds).